PARENTS!!..

i'm telling you all the truth,Parents just don't understand the words that are coming out our mouth...just like my mum,she thinks that i'm the kind of children that loves to lie to their parents,do bad stuff and so on...im surprise that they don't even know their own children personalities,they have been with me for the last 14 yrs and they are looking down on me!!..why?!..

Sometimes i just want to be a bad person because my parents look at me as a bad child and i've TRIED explaining to them but it won't work..soo sometimes i feel that being a bad child would end it all..after all they know that i'm a bad child..soo?..i would prefer being scolded for the things that i've done rather than being scolded for misunderstanding me,im soo sad and will forever be that way...Just because of ONE misunderstood situation,they look at me as if i have no manners,and THE REASON WHY I SHUT UP IS NOT BEACAUSE I'M AFRIAD OF TELLING LIES..THE REASON IS BECAUSE THE MORE I SAY THINGS..THE MORE THEY MISUNDERSTOOD ME...AND SOMETIMES I FEEL THAT TALKING TO THEM IS USELESS CAUSE THEY THINKS THAT I'M A BAD CHILD..SOO WHATS THE POINT TALKING TO THEM!!!??..

for some reason or another,they just expect us to follow their way..its like even if i told my mum i wouldn't do it,she keeps on accusing me of lieing!!..stressful right!!?..they want themselves to be the RIGHT one and if i talked about their mistakes,they seem to scold me!!..*for what?!!...they know that if they make a mistake..admit it larhh!!..we sometimes do the wrong things without realizing it what!!*..GGrrr,they just need to be understanding..thats the KEY to understand thir child better!!...

i sometimes ask myself this question..is adult afraid of losing an argument with their child?..but till now,the answer is still not there..they just expect the elders to WIN the argument..because they are much older than us!!!??..that is soo lame!!..seriously...

And right now i am sooo stress out...i seriously despise my mum's boyfriend!!..Maybe its because of him that my mum start smoking again!!..and guess what readers..the reason is that they are stress..so thats why they smoke a ciggarettes..soo that they can RELIEVE STRESS!!!!..and btw,there's technology around us and there is this such things called Mp3!!...listening to music do relieve stress!..and its a healthy way..why do they have to choose the bad ways to relieve thir stress,i hope they regret all their desicions one day...I WISH SOMEONE WOULD JUST SHOW THEM SOMETHING TO MAKE THEM REGRET SMOKING AND CHANGE INTO A NEW PERSON!!...SOMEONE PLEASE OPEN UP THEIR EYES!!!!...

but overall...i did calm down,i kept quiet..just like my counsellor tolf me to do so...i did not do anything right?..but they accuse me of doing things,soo whats the point of fighting back..its useless...

And right now..i really wish my mum would stay away from that unhealthy person,i care about my mum,but she seems to care about her bf as much as she care for me..and its really hard splitting them up...if only my mum BF would change to a new person..i would totally accept him as my father....(: (:

to my mom,

if you really thinks that im a bad child,then do so..coz as far as you know..if you keep it like this,i would someday be the REAL bad child...coz i don't want to be accuse of what im not doing!!..stressful tau,i rather be scolded for being what i am then im not...understand!!?...SOO IF YOU WANT ME TO BE A BAD CHILD..THAN THINK OF ME AS ONE...COZ SOMEDAY I'LL BE A BAD CHILD...

CURRENTLY im not a bad person..but well some peoples think i am..soo too bad!!..I WISH MY MUM WOULD READ THIS POST!!!....

still with Hidayah..<3..(Hidayah doesn't do bad stuff!!)

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- 5:57 PM

BORING DAY!!!

So today was soo freaking boring..even in Mr Wee class!!..well firstly there's P.E and i got scolded because i didn't bring my p.e attire..*actually it was in my bag..but i was too lazy to change to it..keke..noti muzhafar*..then after P.E we have Computer Applications!!!...yay!! well i've learnt alot of new things today...like how to make bulletin box and all that larhh...well it was not that boring but i was abit stress out by then..

And after that its reccess time!!...i went to the canteen and notice something,its like ALMOST everyone is sitting with their GF and BF and eating out of the same plate and cup and i was ABIT jealous coz i hope switheart was there with me..that would totally rock out!!

Well after all that mayhem it comes to only 2 lessons left!! and its Mother Tongue next..soo,the class was abit peaceful and some joker at the back just lurve to make that bird sound...its like the morning bird sound but i called it 'KuKu bird' and the teacher laugh,hehe nice me..(: then the jokers back there shut their mouth immediately..haha stewpid dudes!!.

sssooo..its Mr Wee class next and its just what i need to cool down my body temperature coz Mr Wee took us to the computer lab...but then the unexpected thing come,Mr Wee started to talk about Classical Music and we were all like staring at him blankly...he told us that if you listen to classical music,it can help you do things better coz it puts your mind to peace and you can concentrate more...but i still need the prove Mr Wee!!!...And guess what?..Mr Wee decided to let us hear some of the CLASSICAL SONG!!...and i was "ughh!!'.

well..listening to it was fun at first but it started to make me sleepy so i decided to lay my head on the table for awhile and yyeeaa well classical music REALLY set your mind to PEACE and when everything is peace there's nothing else to do except for sleeping!!.And so i did take a long nap and it was soo soothing but not that comfortable but well who cares!...uumm than at one-thirty the school bell rang and i heard it soo i just woke up and look around,well a few of them were still asleep but i didn't even bother to wake them up.Then Mr Wee told us to line-up outside and wait for him and so the whole class did and the next thing i know is that Shahida,Sheril,pauline and soleha came up to me and say this sentence...(:

the Gerls:"muzzzz...kau tidur cute arhh,macam nak peluk kau jerr!!..geramnyerr"

well i just smiled at them and say thank you..well,i was abit shocked but yea just accept the fact that i'm cute..hahahaha *prasan seyy*..soo when Mr Wee dismissed the whole class....Sheril,my new classmate came up to me and ask for my number and i wouldn't want to be sombong so i said.."sheril,you give me your number and maybe in the evening i'll contact you kay?"...sooo,she did gave me her number and it was fun talking to her coz she's taking the same bus as me...she said that she really admire me and she thinks that im hawt..*sheril..admitted to me..(: keep it up..* Then i had to go,well supposingly my GF is going to get angry at me for asking her..well i'm not at wrong,i only asked for her number but i'll not call her...i just want peoples to see me as a friendly type of person!!thats all!!..and for your infromation..Sheril is a malay girl..not chinese!!..

AND FINALLY its my THIRD ANNIVERSARY with switheart and its really cool...i lurve her alot!!Well she's pretty,cute and is fun to be around with...(: <3...luv ya sayang!!..and will always be loving her...

still with Hidayah..<3..

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- 2:21 PM

SCHOOL!!!....


soo today was abit fun..it was cool really..urrm let's see,well 6am in the morning switheart woke me up and yea..i just read the message and goes back to bed..*hehe..tanx switheart..but need to try harder larhh*..and yea at school it was really stressful and relaxing at the same time,its like after some stressful attempts on the math question the next period is just relaxing because the teacher didn't come to school...*Mr Wee!!!...knaper larh kau tak dtg skolah!!??*...uurmm so okayy all my classmate is being friendly with me these past few days and its rocking out!!..(:


Well after reccess the principal called my name out and i was like "wtf,no need to say out my name so loud larhh..3 times seyy"...i was soo shy..i hate it when that happens,its like when you stand up everybody would probably stare at you and your outfit...gggrr,but nvm..(: soo the principal called me because i had to see the counsellor...and i was just like..ermm okayy,so i did visit the counsellor and i thought i was in TROUBLE but well..you know..im a good kid...*pat myself*...(: soo yea i wasn't in trouble but the counsellor just ADORE meee!!!...he said that im handsome and i have a very cool smile and i have a nice skin colour...well my job is just to say thank you..and she told me that i've changed alot since i was sec 1...(: and soo yeaa...counselling rox!!!...

uurmm..after school i had to see Mrs Chong..coz im totally lost in mathematics but i need to at least improve a little bit..well you will always succeed if you hadn't stop halfway..(: and uurmm...well i went out of school at about 2:45 pm and reach home 15 minutes later and straight home i wash my feet and just update my super duper blog!!...<3

still with Hidayah and will always be with her..<3..

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- 2:54 PM

MAT REP VS PUNKSTER


Hello there readers..(: urmm well i hope you all have read what my title,well must be interesting..and the most interesting part is that it happened during 16 january at about 4:15pm and yea..it DID NOT have an happy ending to it. (:

its 3 sumthing and i have to meet that someone and he might be dangerous so i decided to call for 'backup'..i waited in my home until that someone arrives,while waiting urmm i got a surprise call..*i lurve surprise call*...it was from switheart (: ...well the conversation was abit fun and interesting..i wish she could do that often..soooo back to the story i was about to tell you,well after about urmm 15 minutes talking to her i got an information about the dude im meeting so i stop the conversation there..i put down my phone and put on my cap...soo i walk slowly..well there's no need to rush..during the meeting some mat reps tries to get our attention and when we look at them..they will make stewpid faces...soo..guess what did i do,i stop the meeting and give the signals to my 'backup' and so my backup came towards me..i bring them further abit from the mat reps so after discussing some stuff...i talk to the mat reps and yea..i was not with my group...so it was like one on five and so while trying to solve things out i notice that they tried to act gangster and they raise up their voice on me.. so i lose my temper and i grab this one mat rep shirt tightly and bring him closer...i said using my warning voice..i told him that it is not neccesary to raise up your voice..well this is what exactly i said..

muzhafar:"hey kat sini tak payah nak besar2 kan suare arhh..suare kalau sedap takper.."

uurmm..the next thing i know is that i let go that dude and the rest started beating me up and so as all humans do,we fight back larhh..my punkster friends went in the gang fight too...we beat each of the mat rep till we are satisfied...well THE REASON MY GROUP WINS is because they use their hands to beat us up but we use our legs to kick them up..*muahahahah* soo after one of the mat rep get hit on the face by one of my friends..the rest retreat but one of them actually FAINTED in front of us!!!...*kater jerr mat reps...merepek arhh*..sooo well the next humans would do is just to step bodoh...(:

And the dude i was meeting earlier ran away into the nearest carpark..i saw it with my two bare eyes...hahahahahahah..well thats all interesting about my life..(: ONCE IN A LIFETIME EXPERIENCE..

And yesh!!...the word of the day is 'interesting'...(:

still with Hidayah..<3..

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- 5:33 PM

(: i am now going to be officially 3rd sergent Muhammad Muzhafar...uurmm the preview of the spec course would be this...

The night is cold and the roads are wet causing it to reflect light and create a beautiful scenery.I walked along the pathment looking towards my direction,my both hands are ready for some immediate actions,all i could hear is my boots knocking on the floor and the crickets.

I looked at my M-16 Rifle Gun and it weights for like 3 kg...i hold the rifle firmly on to my both hands,as i look out on the road,i can see a few squirrel crossing here and there..i was alone on that pathway..i looked left and i saw this beautiful trees..the trees were wet and the rain drops fall of from the leaves like crystal ball...i admire the view for awhile...and so i move on..walking on the wet street,a few cars pass-by...i was up on the hill...i went to a nice guarding post up there where i could see the whole area..it was amazing,the clouds were red in colour and the roads were filled with water and it looks like someone left gold spattering on the floor...it was cold that night so i decided to sit on a stool..i was missing that someone lately..so this is my opportunity to contact her,well i sms-ed her and we did talked for awhile..it was fun..soo after all that typing..i had to go,so i went out of the guard post and take a deep breath..walking down hill on a slow pace i did have time to write 'her' a long msg..(: well i was a bit bored at that time..(:

The rest of the time i just walked around the buildings and sometimes i think about my 'moments' and so..yea thats how it goes...nothing interesting happened and thats all...BUT!!..there is this ONE particular time where i met that something...but its not for the weak-hearted peoples..soo i do not wish to post it here...

sorry and thank you..(:...

still with Hidayah..<3..

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- 8:26 AM