PARENTS!!..
i'm telling you all the truth,Parents just don't understand the words that are coming out our mouth...just like my mum,she thinks that i'm the kind of children that loves to lie to their parents,do bad stuff and so on...im surprise that they don't even know their own children personalities,they have been with me for the last 14 yrs and they are looking down on me!!..why?!..
Sometimes i just want to be a bad person because my parents look at me as a bad child and i've TRIED explaining to them but it won't work..soo sometimes i feel that being a bad child would end it all..after all they know that i'm a bad child..soo?..i would prefer being scolded for the things that i've done rather than being scolded for misunderstanding me,im soo sad and will forever be that way...Just because of ONE misunderstood situation,they look at me as if i have no manners,and THE REASON WHY I SHUT UP IS NOT BEACAUSE I'M AFRIAD OF TELLING LIES..THE REASON IS BECAUSE THE MORE I SAY THINGS..THE MORE THEY MISUNDERSTOOD ME...AND SOMETIMES I FEEL THAT TALKING TO THEM IS USELESS CAUSE THEY THINKS THAT I'M A BAD CHILD..SOO WHATS THE POINT TALKING TO THEM!!!??..
for some reason or another,they just expect us to follow their way..its like even if i told my mum i wouldn't do it,she keeps on accusing me of lieing!!..stressful right!!?..they want themselves to be the RIGHT one and if i talked about their mistakes,they seem to scold me!!..*for what?!!...they know that if they make a mistake..admit it larhh!!..we sometimes do the wrong things without realizing it what!!*..GGrrr,they just need to be understanding..thats the KEY to understand thir child better!!...
i sometimes ask myself this question..is adult afraid of losing an argument with their child?..but till now,the answer is still not there..they just expect the elders to WIN the argument..because they are much older than us!!!??..that is soo lame!!..seriously...
And right now i am sooo stress out...i seriously despise my mum's boyfriend!!..Maybe its because of him that my mum start smoking again!!..and guess what readers..the reason is that they are stress..so thats why they smoke a ciggarettes..soo that they can RELIEVE STRESS!!!!..and btw,there's technology around us and there is this such things called Mp3!!...listening to music do relieve stress!..and its a healthy way..why do they have to choose the bad ways to relieve thir stress,i hope they regret all their desicions one day...I WISH SOMEONE WOULD JUST SHOW THEM SOMETHING TO MAKE THEM REGRET SMOKING AND CHANGE INTO A NEW PERSON!!...SOMEONE PLEASE OPEN UP THEIR EYES!!!!...
but overall...i did calm down,i kept quiet..just like my counsellor tolf me to do so...i did not do anything right?..but they accuse me of doing things,soo whats the point of fighting back..its useless...
And right now..i really wish my mum would stay away from that unhealthy person,i care about my mum,but she seems to care about her bf as much as she care for me..and its really hard splitting them up...if only my mum BF would change to a new person..i would totally accept him as my father....(: (:
to my mom,
if you really thinks that im a bad child,then do so..coz as far as you know..if you keep it like this,i would someday be the REAL bad child...coz i don't want to be accuse of what im not doing!!..stressful tau,i rather be scolded for being what i am then im not...understand!!?...SOO IF YOU WANT ME TO BE A BAD CHILD..THAN THINK OF ME AS ONE...COZ SOMEDAY I'LL BE A BAD CHILD...
CURRENTLY im not a bad person..but well some peoples think i am..soo too bad!!..I WISH MY MUM WOULD READ THIS POST!!!....
still with Hidayah..<3..(Hidayah doesn't do bad stuff!!)
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